This was me. Yesterday. No, not sleeping. Hiding. If you had asked me what I was hiding from, I’d have told you my life, the broken pipes, my kids, stress, and possibly a dozen other things that were overwhelming me. But the truth is that I was hiding from myself. I was hiding from the fact that I felt insignificant, overwhelmed, and quite ill equipped to handle it all.
And I was. I still am today.
But today I’m up, dressed, drinking a Cookie Dough Shake for breakfast (gotta have chocolate after a day like yesterday’s!), and ready to face the world. What’s changed? Me.
I realized that I was right yesterday: I can’t do it any more. I can’t deal with the sibling squabbles, the complaining, the lack of sleep (oh sweet, LORD, give me SLEEP!), the overflowing laundry, and the bills that often exceed the paychecks as of late. I just can’t be that strong any more. But here’s the thing: it’s not my job. That’s right. It’s not my job to deal with all of that.
It’s my job to love God and love my family. It’s God’s job to be strong. The Bible overflows with this assurance.
*His strength is made perfect in my weakness (2 Cor 12:9)
*His grace is sufficient for me (2 Co 12:9)
*Christ in me, the hope of glory (Col 1:27)
*The same spirit that raised Christ from the dead dwells in us (Rom 8:11)
*He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak (Is 40:29)
*God is my refuge and strength, always there when I’m in trouble (Ps 46:1)
*He is my strength every morning (Is 33:2)
*He is my strength…He enables me… (Hab 3:19)
That’s why I’m up today and victorious. Because I looked at these verses and realized that my only presence in them is as a weak being in need of strength. I don’t generate the strength, find the grace, provide the help. I receive. God is my Father. He is your Father. He is our Beloved. He will not leave us with out provision, protection, and passionate love showering down around us. It is our birthright as heirs, joint heirs with Christ, to have every spiritual gift under heaven (read Ephesians 1 to see all that God promises you – so uplifting!). We are precious to God and He delights in protecting us, strengthening us, giving us hope, and being our refuge.
So I don’t have to be Super Woman today. You don’t either, by the way. I just have to love God, love my husband and kids, and love anyone else God brings into my path. God will protect me through that. He will give me sufficient grace in each trial. He will give me strength when all I want to do is cry – or scream – or run away – or hide – or give up. Are you encouraged today, sweet sister? I know I am. I am so thankful for mercies that are new every morning, the promise that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and that salvation will always come when I am distressed.